Yesterday marked the 10 year mark that my mom has been gone. 10 years. I don't really know what else to say that hasn't already been said here by me, about her. You all know how much I miss her, you all know how much fun I thought she was and you all know how much my life has been impacted by the loss of having her around. What else is there?
She was fun, beautiful, creative, adventurous, caring, a great friend, silly, talented, a wonderful mother, a seeker of truth, a good person, very self aware, a good cook, she liked to play games, she wore her clothes really well, she was responsible, a great dancer and always had a tan. She was not judgemental, mean spirited, jealous of others, pushy, late, boring, dull, bad at math or grammar, and she never not got the joke... She was and wasn't all of these things and so much more, especially to me. What I hate the most about her being gone, is as I get older I find myself wanting to know more things; about her and her life, about what she really thought about this thing we call life, and it would be so great to have her around to compare notes, you know? To know your mom as an adult, that to me would be the ultimate. I think I would understand her more now, I would listen more, I would have a lot more empathy towards her and all that she had been through in life. Oh, and I just know that we could be such good friends. I think she would really like that too. I just miss her that's all.
Here is a look back at some of my thoughts over the past years...
Today is my honey's Birthday and he told me when he woke up... "Yep, I'm gonna kick 42's ass..." Then he moaned because of the serious hangover I gave him. Well, obviously I didn't actually "give" it to him, but because I wanted to take him out last night to listen to music and celebrate his special day, he went and drank one too many dirty martini's and is now paying for it. (poor guy)Apparently, you just can't drink like you did back when you were 22.
We had a great time at Harpoon Henry's... We listened to this great singer, Phil Shane. This guy has an entire act, he's a one man band. He sings all the classics; Dean, Frank, Neil Diamond, and of course Elvis. He starts his show at 7:30 and sings and sings until 12:30. Never taking a break. Ever. He's awesome and we had a great time, singing along with an entire room of fans, and dancing in the aisle ways. Happy Birthday TL... I love you!!