trail blazer...

9 years later I still miss the poo out of her. I've been grumpy all week and didn't really clue in till it dawned on me, maybe it's because I'm pissed off that my mom's not around to wish a happy's mom's day to.

Of course, I'd much rather her be around for a lot more than just to wish her a happy day... like for instance; I'd rather her be around so we could go shopping together and end up in the dressing room laughing so hard at the way those pants fit her, that we're both forced to hold our crotches so we don't pee oursevles. I'd much rather her be around so we could dance together in the livingroom to the music of Abba and not have any other cares in the world but the songs on the record player. I'd much rather her be around so we could watch all the great reality t.v. shows together and then share our opinions about all of them for hours and hours, which I know we'd do because that's just how we were. And lastly, I'd much rather her be around so that when TL or my job or whatever it may be, make me so mad or sad that I need nothing but her shoulder to cry on, and she's there to let me.

You see it's more than just a day, more than a day to tell her how much you care. It's a lifetime, a lifetime of moments shared, time spent together loving each other, growing up together and having the most special of relationships you'll ever have with anyone in the whole world. I had it and now I don't, and sometimes I'm just really pissed off about it.

Browsing old photos like these, does sometimes help. I miss you mom, and think about you every day. Thank you for being who you are and teaching me that life is meant to be a place to live, laugh and dance.


Mom Blazing a Trail in Malorjca, Spain... Circa: 1961

Comments

[janet]

awwww cute post jill! i completely get you on this one. not looking too forward to fathers day myself. :P btw, a little birdie told me your 5 year anniversary is quickly approaching! mazel tov!!! :D